manifesting from the heart space

okay so this came to me this morning and i wanna write kinda like a script for this

probably will be no different than any other writing but lol

i also want to claim that this is personal expereince

if you dont agree with me

dont read it

i am not a fan of conflict lol

so manifesting

when we are manifesting i have really focused on the subconscious mind until recently

i mean they are both important

but heart space manifesting

is very much powerful

they work together

i believe the subconscious mind when we are manifesting has a lot to do with relationships and how we interact with the world what we want to bring in to our existence in relations

so when we are interacting with the universe to manifest

it can be easy to manifest something

but will our minds accept it

i think that the subconscious is the sabotage

well i guess its our bodies also that will reject

the heart will attract

the subconscious mind will tell us stories as to why we are unworthy

so we sabotage or not

but the subconscious will allow us to percieve

what we are experiencing and the heart will feel

does this feel good?

does this look good?

you know it can be confusing with trauma

heart space manifesting i believe

is more so from what we want to welcome in in a big way

expereinces

homes

places

people

i mean the more im talking about it the more im like yeah they work in tandem

but were gunna focus on heart space manifesting

we take our logical mind out of the equation

the one that tells us possible from impossible

and we focus on what we are looking to feel and experience

heart cemntered

what would make our hearts feel whole and free

in any situation with heart led manifesting

we have to be in the heart space

centered in love

unconditional love

of self and other

lol like unconditional love is not this foo foo skipping and frolicking down the merry lane

no

unconditional love can be really uncomfortable

our hearts are living

breathing feeling things

they hurt, they get happy

and we work with our hearts to live and direct our lives

we can sometimes neglect the heart

its a balance

but the focus is

what are we manifesting from the heart

we can have walls around the heart

trauma, pain

and mentally we can stay

in this cage and box because we believe we deserve this

but its for a purpose of healing

the heart

to manifest from a more heart centered place that makes us happy

and our work is mental

im seeing this more prevelantly in my life lately

where we have closed ourselves off from love, experience - for ourselves

from things that we want like a loving relationship or a beautiful home

due to pain experienced where we have built walls around our hearts to not get hurt again

so we get these feelings where its like no im not open

our body will physiologically make us feel like get out of here

and our minds will listen and tell us a story as to why

when we are around an energy that would create this experience again

i find this is very generationalk too

where we look at our ancestors and i believe poverty for many was a reality for quite a long time

domestication really wasnt all that long ago lol

so when we have these walls and energies still kinda in our heart field

energetically

we have not closedd these chapters

we manifest similar outcomes and instances

because that frequency is still mirrored inside of us

until we feel

when we feel these repressed emotions

which i have found is a lot of weight mentally - to allow ourselves into these healing chambers lol

its a well working machine or is supposed to - body mind soul

sometimes were all over the map

so our egos are built to protect us

so much so that we will just avoid situations that bring up these sort of expereinces

for example

so if we want to overcome some of these heart walls

we have to be manuevered by the universe sometimes

to feel and heal

to release

because if we are strong mentally we can be our own worst enemy

well maybe just avoidant

otherwise we will avoid and not see lol

unbenownst to us were just doing everything we can lol

because were gaslighting ourselves

lol imagine that hey

we dont see because mentally, subconsciously we are not open to these realities

we havent experienced these realities

therefore they do not exist

what does it feel like to actually feel through an emotion

i think we feel stronger on the other side

its not listening to the mind

or reprogramming the mind

which i have a hard time doing

only because i feel strong mentally in protection

but we can adjust the script of the mind to ramble

and through focusing on the intention of love

i think it comes full circle to just feeling like really good you know

overcoming the fear

and releasing suffering to feel happy

and loved

so when we are in a situation of releasing a traumatic expereince

mentally we are taken back to the original instance

i do believe that with transits in astrology and just being guided through trauma to reach our goals

god is guiding, universe is guiding

love is guiding us through these

and what we have to remember

all we have to remember is

we are loved NO MATTER WHAT

we are loved and are forgiven by god, universe, higher power

already

before we even allow ourselves to be forgiven we are

as soon as it happens we are forgiven

will we allow the forgiveness in?

will we forgive ourselves?

you know

i mean its a matter of feeling and healing

that forgiveness

is unconditional love

but it isnt easy either

because if we have repressed this fucking expereince for that long

theres a reason for it

its trauma its pain

that our minds are avoiding us from feeling because our bodies have said i dont like this and our minds are like okay

check

we will avoid these instances

and thats where mentally

we can be our own worst enemy or best friend

and im not a fucking doctor lol

but im a mental person in a lot of ways

and i feel like sometimes we just go through it you know

the only way out is through and with that

its like yeah it sucks

but also

the other side

that weight weve carried

the shit that gets put on us

anxiety all the rest

its kinda like it goes away after that pain is gone

the pain weve been holding onto that is the suffering

and then we are open to manifesting from a clear and open heart

thats where its really an interesting experience

will our minds release the pain

or will our minds allow us to feel love

or has love always hurt

and brought pain and sadness

so its an interesting dynamic

to release and let go

what can we manifest when we love ourselves fully?

when we accept these parts of self that we really never interacted with before

because weve been closed off to our own self love

to even believeing we are loveable

we can manifest a lot of shit

lol good shit too

like all good shit

but really good shit

is thhis the healing journey?

yes

does everyone take this route?

no

does it matter?

i mean i dont know

i feel like if we want to manifest a life that we feel good about

i think we gotta work with these denser energies

these energies weve held onto that tells us we are unworthy of love

maybe its growth

and if we have a high tolerance for whatever were doing and thats all good

then i feel like we dont really embark on these sorts of endeavours

because the pain and suffering is familiar

are we guided?

maybe

probably

maybe we incarnate on earth and its already pplanned that we will go on this healing journey which makes more sense lol

but to make things more complicated

what if we want to manifest our greatest hearts desires

financial stability

freedom in a lot of ways

feel good experiences

whatever that looks like for you

a beautiful home

a loving family

money

can we hold those frequencies of these gifts if we are attached to suffering and pain

ive learnt no

it leaves and falls away

because we are used to that feeling

and the uncomfortable feeling of feeling loved

is just something we have never felt

and so our minds are naturally gunna go the route we have always went

unless we can really feel these feelings

and trust

trust that we will be okay if we were to feel loved

and were at a wall

its like what else can i possibly do

well first respect that lol

and second i feel like it really comes from doing

pushing through the unknown or fear even

and staying in the heart space

staying in love

love being reciprocated due to that being the energy that we are embodying

“i embody the energy i wish to manifest”

law of reciprocity

i mean whatever other law that deals with karma etc

i feel a lot of this is getting to know self

being aware of self

where does self faulter in life

where does self get angry at life

where does self love life

and if we are to actually open ourselves to the possibility of something new

being opposite from what weve expereinced

its tough in survival mode to even allow ourselves to notice these things

were focused on our survival

and this is nervous system work

you know making it a priority to focus on self even hyper focus

lol dont take my advice

i dont know what im talking about

or do

but im not responsible for you lol

i just talk

but yeah when we notice these things i feel like mentally we open ourselves up to allowing more of these instances of unconditional love to kinda seep in

and its uncomfortable too

it can feel like i dont want to be loved

i dont want to be understood

i dont want to feel like i am apart of something

because thats safer

and with that i think its a very weird situation to be in

and one i am experiencing

of allowing myself to release suffering

this is lifetimes old

its so normal to me

which is good and uncomfortable all at the same time

its never fun to see ourselves in a position where we are sabotaging

but acceptance

acceptance of what is

to move through to what can be

we are not suffering for no reason

and the pain will pass

it takes a while

it takes small steps

and thats this release im feeling of big

the big steps

do the crazy shit

and get crazy results

but slow is more and more being introduced

we come out stronger

and on the other side

i guess its a feeling of uncomfortability

but being on the right path

being aware

and understanding that im healing

from a lot

and healing will create our new realities

we all are

oo