letting god show you
who can you trust in this life?
yourself first
even when you think you cant
you can, that voice that small voice
that says i dont trust this
but the people pleasing behaviour of submission creeps in
and you put up with the bullshit
you continue to obey and listen
submission/domination
bpd in a nutshell
destroying the trust in yourself
which can be rebuilt
god will keep you going
the ones who aren’t worthy of your time, or who don’t understand you
will be shown
and with that
you regain your power
i am no longer afraid of feeling ashamed for who i am
acting in my truth
maybe looking like an ass every now and then
better than being an ass and being labelled every fucking name in the book
cowering and then believing it
years of doing that have proven to not be the right way
like a bucking bronco kicking all these leeches and narcs trying to control me and tell me what the fuck i know off my path, off my ass
was wondering why i felt caged
i can see its internally me
willingly and freely giving my power away - externally
hypervigilance
hyperindependence
i was built for this life
thats why im living it
coming into my own balance
a balance only i know
only i can feel
thinking i was lesser than
habitual behaviours of cowering to “authority”
and yet fearing it all at the same time
creating an extreme of energies flipping me from one side to the other
not realizing how empathic i was
this imbalance…..
is narc/empath
realizing my power once again
believing i was re-gifted it because now i have the wisdom to carry it in a healthy way
maybe this was my path all along
beginning of life
feeding my power away
only to come back and hold it gracefully when ready
lol feels good to be free
or in the process of freeing myself from these holds ive had to external forces
when ive only wanted to be connected to myself
here i am
stubborn i am, strong as an ox
took a lot
but i’m grateful for these parts of self
who i am
i see me
i trust me
learning who i can trust
and who is for me
divinely protected
coming back home to self
cutting cords
lots of them
which believe it or not
isolation
has really helped gain trust within
a lot comes up
what can you believe?
well it all comes from internally
so feel the feeling
and forgive and move on
doesnt have to be for anyone else
and find your neutral
and look to the future
the past isn’t here anymore
even though it can live within
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