venus retrograde

past lives reemerge

the pages of our lives

asking to be rewritten

words said and unsaid

missing feelings and those that wont leave

voids and lumps

hatred will boil

love will sting

misinterpreted lust

claws sinking into attachment

the past has come back to be revisited

retrograde

for future revision

these boundaries for self

safety

protection

will all come back around

to see where our love of self lies

mirrors

its never an easy job

but one has to do it

these imbalances

or alignments

we feel and experience

bring us closer to the soul

have we felt the soul?

do we truly know what the soul feels like

do we remember?

soul is bliss

calm

pure divine essence of self

without wanting

free from yearning

completely present

the inconveniences and obstacles we face may be hard to look at

hard to bare

hard to swallow

they are the catacombs of our pasts

the burial grounds to past versions

to honour these

is to witness

self

the pain will only last a short time

the sting

easy to shy away from

will cauterize

from reoccurrence

to witness is to heal

avoidance is a promise to repeat

allowing the mind to remove itself from the body

for a short period

to feel

allows a deeper understanding

as to why we attract such pain

wretched dry heaving

as the poison re-emerges

the push and pull

more nauseating than the suffering that lead us here

when does one let go

fear of the release opens up the fear of return

yet the grip of familiarity attracts and reminds

whenever it gets the chance

so we feel

we allow

we be

and through these times

we write a new story

one that solicits growth and renewal

after all

its fertile ground

the death of it all

has created the soil

but does not define

gratitude overcomes the visceral release

due to the strength received

as i sit in awe at the beauty

of the garden of my creation