What is Perception? Relationship w/ our Egos

There are 8 billion perceptions of you on this planet, and the only one that matters is yours.

Interesting to think that there is not one perception of you that is exactly how you see yourself - they are filtered through experiences and opinions lived in another soul

Communication is really what we have and our language is our way of expressing. Energy is truth, but it's our own truth and can be interpreted in a multitude of ways.

It's the people who understand and connect and relate - the love of connection and the "I so get what your saying/feeling" that can make even the most complicated of situations feel free

How boring would this world be if we were all the same? I guess, half the 'battle' and the success that is connection is filtering through and finding those special people who get it.

I don't believe in labels, I feel they limit the true potential we all have of change and growth and experiencing the full experience of humanness. Manipulation, narcissism, codependency, insecurity I feel are used too much to label a person, when I think they are actually habits of defense. They are learned ways of reacting to protect our Ego’s - which aren’t bad or negative in any sense

PSA!! NEGATIVE AND POSITIVE ARE EGO CONSTRUCTS AND SOCIETAL PROGRAMMING TO HELP HUMANS SURVIVE IN A TRIBE!

okay, so back to it,

I’m working on releasing these descriptions lol… I wonder who I’ll be by time I’m 40? (random thought just now)

A habit that anyone can have and use to their own discretion. So it’s just the same as eating a bag of chips - you eat unhealthy for a day and then the Ego comes in and is like “OMG!!! Becky you always eat like shit, why do you do this, omg think of all the “bad” food you’ve eaten in the last week and don’t think of all the healthy food and effort you’ve put in.. This bag of chips is going straight to your double chin and it’s never going away!”

Lol a little extreme but I’m exaggerating for effect

The same but different when we encounter our “shadows”…. ooooohhhh scary lol

Someone tells us - “you’re being manipulative” (horrible communication btw)

Your ego is going to do EVERYTHING in it’s repertoire to keep you safe, “no I’m not manipulative, I am so kind and I do all of this and this and I help people and I do this and I blah..blah, blah” and honestly - they are doing the exact same! They are like “ OMG why is she manipulating me, I’m so kind I’m just the best person ever and omg I would never do that”

It’s a game of energy

So reality hits, we sometimes can be manipulative, we sometimes can be a narcissist and put our feelings above others. We’re human. & until we have experienced all of our little hidden traumas, nothing is integrated and it will keep coming back to haunt us - haunting in a silent way where we just see it in other people.

So I’m kinda jumping all over the place - I haven’t even had coffee yet.

So where we can flip this is coming back to the accuser - “you’re being manipulative”

We can say okay, if I am attracting someone who is manipulating me, where in my own life and in my own person can I see where I manipulate also

OR where do i not have strong boudnaries with myself to not accept this sort of behaviour

This is where being real is like hard, lol because it’s scary to admit we aren’t “good” - especially with the religious constructs we have looming in our everyday

So we look and we say okay so here, here and here I can see where I have been manipulative to others - then we find the underlying reason behind it. Okay so I tend to be manipulative when I feel like I’m not going to get my way, or when I feel emotionally attacked, or whatever the reason is.

So afterwards, obviously breathe, we’re human

We breathe and we accept, we can even dig deeper and say okay so where is this coming from - probably learnt lol and we send love to it

We say okay - I love myself unconditionally and what can I do next time is be aware of my reactions and be more conscious of our emotions and we vcan make better work of deciphering what wer emissing and I think… lol the manipulative bitches hanging around will probably fall to the wayside - if my theory is correct lol

The fear of being labelled these "negative" connotations creates the inability to see the self in all situations. Ego construct of keeping us safe. We're really never one thing ALL the time, it's not always or never.. we are constantly learning, growing and evolving and if we can see ourselves through the eyes of acceptance - "good/bad" can f off it all just is, that's where legit growth happens. Coming out of the ego through the lens of the heart to allow awareness integrates healing - we're human, remember

So with this little factoid - how do you feel? I feel a little better lol so really we’re all just mirrors, what you say to another is actually apparent in your subconscious/conscious because of your secret awareness behind NOT wanting to be that way lol you follow?

We attract our shadows which are the depths of ourselves we have not yet accepted & w/ acceptance we bring light. The reason we have not accepted said parts is because of our negative perception of it. Just because you're blind to it doesn't mean it's not there - damn.. lol hey Scorpio Season #sidereal I feel you, I see it lol

#ohlife

We're all just here experiencing ourselves through the lens of our own reality

Just be, and see the beauty in the flow of you

don’t judge yourself either, it ruins the fun of getting to know yourself

popular, confident, white, bitch, asshole, nice guy, rich, poor - it means nothing but comfort in knowing you belong to something bigger than you are and usually is a telltale sign pointing directly to what you crave and desire for yourself

I’m working on feeling whole and right now I need to allow myself the range of “crazy” lol because what is even happening right?

love you <3