connecting with our spirit team

lol dang bra, some intense shifts happening energetically

mentally things are lining up thats all i care about at this point lol

the fog has lifted

its almost like to try and explain this

it feels like i was blind but now i see lol

i have a hard time conceptualizing with my human brain what past lives are or how to even put words to what is actually going on lol

time is an illusion in the energetic realm so everything is happening all at the same time in the present moment

we can try and predict the future, change the future

dwell in the past but ultimately everything is happening in the present moment

when we drop our consciousness into our heart space

we are present

when we are present we experience zero point energy

all that is, where all possibilities exist - because we are in the energy of unconditional love

where we can experience any reality we tune into

and so then we are experiencing all time in the present

so… with past lives

soul contracts

when we experience them in this life

the divine plan

its like we have an inner knowing that can be easy to glaze over lol

be drawn in

and we have choices to evolve or repeat

if

we make different choices

we evolve on a soul level

the mirror - when you meet them

it is the weirdest feeling lol because its a reality check for where you actually are at physically to where you percieve your consciousness to be, is what im finding these tests to be lol obviously

but i do feel like energetically we are sent into certain timelines when encountered with certain vibrations that trigger of our traumas/desires etc. - i do believe to heal collectively

then what we just transmute the energy that was taken from us?

is this possible in all soul contracts? no clue lol still learning this perpetual cycle

so are we just reliving the same life over and over again based on our families lineage? until we change the script?

well i guess saturn - planet of karma has answers

while learning about ourselves through another person?

strengthening our bond within ourself through seeing ourselves in the other, in love??

like love is powerful af

lol thats what it feels like

it feels like a chemical reaction

but its weird to be in a situation where i felt like i knew better

you know like i had been in situations before of similar circumstances

but this time, the energy was so intense because it was based on childhood wounding, remembrance and maybe astrology

the connection and bond - strong - but these are related to energies that remember deep within us

like it pulled me to the breaking point

but it also brought me there in safety and protection and love

which also shifts subconscious beliefs around love - alchemy

astrologically as well - transformation was on the books for this one (polar opposites tropically and sidereally)

so that we could regain what was lost? divine inheritance, the mental capacity to see myself?? - dang this is fucking deep lol so many people involved too like very multidimensional

balance

like this is where it takes me into a higher perspective of life

what is being shifted

taking back what i had given through this life and its different for everyone, what was taken and given back energetically through different avenues

but had also happened

throughout my family line as well - habits and traits, different dynamics with relationships and emotions

mentally these things are what are being pieced together

trauma from neglect that walked with me, and whatever else kinda holding me hostage within

like these deep wounds that were uncovered

and so the alchemization of this

was in my opinion divinely orchestrated

to like break my heart open

to myself?

lol like still in the midst

but such an etheric experience

like it feels like i am witnessing my full self where as before i could only see the surface or something

like bra this is so fucking out of my realm

lol but its like an actual experience i am fucking experiencing lol like no joke its wild

i can feel like who i was, was not whole

i felt like i was missing something

it just felt like i was kinda lost

and uncertain as to why because i feel the other parts of me was disconnected?

because looking back on these situations with my better judgement of the last fucking however many years/life lol i wouldve made better choices LOL

thats my ego coming in to tell me i look like an ass lol yeah i know

hindsight like fuck - but then being controlled emotionally within myself? like living in the matrix within lol its so fucked to comprehend

these dynamics in relationships

we can be unconscious to

anyways

it’s just like i am conscious of this shift that is happening within me energetically

its like this power/energy that i can see being taken/given unknowingly through my life - unconsciously lol from so many different avenues based on beliefs and constructs created mentally that steered me away from love but was yearning for what i thought it was?

like these karmic webs

of my family line

i can see them in my own life being played out

so it just makes me wonder lol

obviously

like past lives

our lives

like the story behind our actions

what our motives are for where we’re going

i feel has been corrected and aligned through an alchemical process lol of expereince, time, different energies lol

soul healing

alignment

knowing our soul

really seeing it feeling it

i don’t understand how this all connects and yet i do completely understand it all lol

but the transformation happening internally i feel very…

a million words come to mind lol my body feels lit up

and so yeah

thanks universe lol

lol actually my body feels high lol a clean pure high

unconditional love high LOL omg

my physical body aligning with my soul lol that came to mind

i felt different from how i was recieved to like misunderstood in ways that dynamic of narcisitic energy and empathic energy within ourselves coming to mind and balancing of the two internally, releasing the martyr and witnessing it consciously to bring it into collective consciousness because all this is is an energetic reaction between 2 energies and timing

soul contract you know - perhaps mentally building another for their benefit and then now reaping rewards and recieving the exchange of energy - a manifestation of imagination but at a huge level that shakes shit up monumentally tower moment lol

reaping what weve sown, but in a sideways perspective where we wouldn’t have wanted it to work out this way consciously

but now i am consciously putting these pieces together from my subconscious and seeing everything worked out exactly as it was meant to

to bring wholeness back to myself energetically

like expanding consciousness af lol

but yeah loss, these things that really tore me to the bare bones

and i guess thats where it’s the building process of self

losing everything to gain your strength internally

not needing the external to be grounds for your strength and power

which is a blessing because i wouldn’t actually be in this spot

where i feel strong within if i didn’t have the experience

completely

like all of it

and for that im grateful

for it all lol

multidimensional beings

coming out of the 3d

witnessing multidimensionality

within myself

ay carumba

lol

what a rush

if you’re bored

dive into your subconscious

oo